day3

SO.....woke up early very excited for the upcoming day with meeting Master K finally...We were suppose to meet last november and I would have had private traiing with him but unexpected changes made my change the plans but life sometime works in mysterious ways and here I am in a perfect timing. Matt between jobs having full time free for me, Master K just got back from a big trip to Japan having tones of things to tell and show, me also being free like the wind....It was meant to happen this way I believe.
My first meeting with K was very special I got to be tied up by him in front of his students...really tight as I asked, very deep, we got connected together and he touched my soul. I had tears...it happens when the kinbaku is perfect. it was a very special moment I must say....
Master K yes told all his stories wich I promised not to reveal and I WONT. I was very priviledged to be there and I got to learn some more of whats going on in Japan and the world of kinbaku....very veyr intersting...so far I had learned SOOO much it is incredible, I feel so lucky. At the same time I feel like a fish in the water, I am where I am suppose to be and that feels great.
K went and Matt came back telling me that when K realised it was me, the girl who was suppose to come in Novemeber for lessons he insisted to give me an hour introduction of kinbaku whcih I was of course delighted to accept.

We went for dinner at a great bugger place in La with Satcey and Tammy....OHHH lets not forget to mention this perticular moment I went through while K was teaching us in the fabulous suite Matt and Haley rent (used to go to when meeting K for lessons). Tammy was being tied up by Master K and I was sketching the ties but suddenly I got really touched by her face, her expression, her body in the ropes and got really involved in the drawing....I couldnt stop sketching...wasnt really satisfied but I told to myself that is what I want to do...do kinbaku, draw it, change the position as I wish draw it...using ink, charcoal....Its her face that inspired me, her skin and my love for this art.
SO back to the dinner....great burgers yesss and my first galss fo alccol since my arrival, a great delicious beer call red white (as red light?).
so this cuite les couple is so charming and Matt hehe so gourmand he likes food like no one, and Haley so pretty and delicate... I am just enjoying evry minute of their company.
Time to head back. The sweet couple are returning to San Diego, 3 hours drive...we go backto the suite and we leave Haley to herself and we go out! ....to be continued....

day 1 and day 2 in San Diego with Matt and Haley Demonsix group

I was soo tired yesterday that I couldnt write about my first day with Matt and Haley in San Diego.
Matt came to pick me up at the airport just like he said he would. Acutally he appeared just behind me while I was waiting for my luggage at the carrier....We HAD TALKED LIKE 2 MIN ONLY BEFORE THE DAY BEFORE AND i COULD HARDLY HEAR BECAUSE i WAS IN A NOIZY CAR (oups caplocks) and even I immadietley fell he was a nice guy, you know in my guts I had tha impression. THat was confiirmed throughout the day.
As soon as we got to his place he generously alreday jump into introducing me to the kinbaku esthetics through different rare and precious books they had accumulated with effort adn determination throughout many years of dedication. I fell and still feel very lucky an dhonored for their trust and generosity. Haley is a wonderful quiete passionate woman. She seflets all the way the asian in her even though she is not. But she has been dedicating her life to studying kinabaku for the last 10 years full time now and being Master K assistant for the last couple of years now. I am one of the rare guest theyve had like this.
SO after I have seen the the photogrpahys of different Bakushis, my head filled with those incredible images...I was very fond of Nureki, for the pain torture with beauty, he then put some ore on dvd...I was amaezed to finallly finding out about the other bakushis in Japan, other then Harasue Go....Really inspiring....

I was tired abd overload with it but very very happy to say the least.

THen they invited me for dinner at a very cute mexican restaurant...We talked, I got to know them more then I had the chance to have a little tour of San Diego...I saw ans smell a very nice beach, open to all, very kool, I could see my self going there at night, Saw downtown very buzy, they have bikers that can carry you in a seat behind, like in NY and surprisingly I saw a lot of women doing this job.
I was tired so he drove me back to my hotel.

I woke up early this morning, 8h30! had a lot of dreams, at a certain point I opened my eayes didnt know where I was for a few seconds...anyway I got to train, and study Harisue Go a bit....even that is a great opportunity for me...I wil definitely order his books and Dvd..then he picked me up and went to this amazing japenese grocery store...wow just wow! I wouls have stayed there for 2 hours buying all kind of goodies...we went also to this also amazing japenese bookstore full of mangas, artbooks, models books and sometimes they have kinbaku books but its rare still and hidden behind the counter..like the tattoo books. there too I would have stayed a few hours...thenb we went to eat guess what, at a japenese restaurant. As cheap as the Pho restaurant in Montreal but very very good and fresh and typical. I had ramen..mmmmmh the egg was delicious...intersting they had garlic puree on every table....
anyway Matt had problems with finding me a model to practice so we watched other dvds of bakushi including one featuring Harisue Go, naruki and yukimura and interviews with them which I didnt understand a word of course. But I was captivated...especially tieh the masterpiece Naruki did with this great model tied up to a pole...ooo I woudl ike to be tied up like that one day and do it to someone too!!!!
THen I met Opal...very cuite nice littel woman...we ended up tying eachother tonight and I really likeher I even invited her over to my place to do some more rope together and party. She seems to be very interested.
I met a bunch of people frome the Demonsix group. We all practice in Matt's studio. I tied up a bit, learned some new tie and I got supsende! weeeee! my little cherry for the day.

TOmotrro heading to LA to have a class with Master K!!! I am soo excited thrilled and happy!

my shibary journal : San Diego tomorrow

FLying to San Diego tomorrow...Last minute decision based on passion...my journey into the shibari leads me in different places, in different timeframe as well. I still have flashbacks of my experience at Shibaricon, missing my rope partner alot, some regrets of not have used every second every minutes enough or as I should have, to much desire to deal with...But Shibaricon is nother topic.
I am goign to see Matt and Haley in San Diego. I don't really know what will happen there. The onlyp lan he told me was that we were goignt o meet Master K in LA , came back from Japan few days ago and he will have a lot to talk about...his story over there , his mission of openning the Japenese to western people, make them intersted in what we do in shibari here. It should be intersting...I just hope I won't be to much confused...I have difficulties ti understand English talking somtimes when I am tired.
Otherwise Matt is suppose to train me and to have found some  models for me to practice on. I hope we will get along well, that time will be used wisely and fully, that I will learn alot from his expertise in Kinbaku.
I am going there alone and I have never met them so I am a bit nervous. Even more after my bad experience in Paris....thats also another topic...
Ok I have to get ready for my shooting as well as starting to pack my bag...I have just 2,5 hours left before the driver picks me up to the shoot.....

Mon temps est compté. Plus que quelques jours avant le jour du debut du changement drastique. Ma cure self imposed. Un nouveau futur pleins desperance. La volonté et la discipline est le dieu en soi mais je dois dire qu'il n'était pas fort ces jours ci. Je prepare son retour en force...mentalement dumoins. C'est toujours necessaire de mourir avant de revivre anyway.